wrecked

With all those words you bring

Why do you say what you don't mean?

To those people who don't care about one thing that you might need

And you just don't know

Your actions always shine the most

To those people who don't care if you end up alone

You need some time to sew

All those bridges that you burned

'Cause there's nothing left to bring

To someone who just won't learn

Have you made up your mind?

How have you known what you decide

To those people who just think that you are telling lies

You make it so hard for mr

I cant be around you.

By the way.

He knows.

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I want to ask you why... But i cant

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How do i know what i want? Youre young and i say the wrong things. Im spiraling out of control in the wrong direction

How do i know what i want? Youre young and i say the wrong things. Im
spiraling out of control in the wrong direction

I dont know who can help me

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eeeeEEEEEEEeee

i really dont think there are any words that could describe the weekend i just had. except maybe AMAZING. PERFECT. INCREDIBLE.

Breaking up

Is hard to do. Miss you already <3

Clarity

I'll take your words as if you were talking to me.
Say what I know you'll say and say it through your teeth.


So. Seems there was a bit of a drunken rant last night. so who thought it was a good idea to set up my blogger so i could post directly from notes in my iphone.


With pride keep every failure in.
And with pride hold on to the sinking.


So i guess i need to clarify a few things and explain them to myself as sober maybe. cause drunk maybe sure is emotional. I just grab jacks hand and run with it.


Now in the deep and down your heart moves.
Now in the deep and down, I don't know how but I know I want out.
Wait for something better.


I seem to continually get myself into these little flurrys of upset... i talk myself into things being worse than they are, stupid imaginations running wild. It's not really that bad. my concept of time is just retarded. it feels like weeks and weeks have passed but really its only been days. thats point one.


Will I know when it can be us?
Maybe that doesn't mean us.


POint two. whilst jack likes to make me think i want to go back in time. Really i dont. The lows had started to outweigh the highs. Sober maybe knows this. Being around great people makes me realise this even more. Its definitely time for me to stop living on my own...


Wait for something better?
I shouldn't, it's not enough.


Why do i want to give up my freedom? my freedom is what i love the most about my life. i can be carefree all the time. i rarely have to think about others... does this make me selfish....


Pull one excuse from another.
Just one excuse from another.


Extremely random thought processes right now.. nothigns flowing, nothings making sense. a holiday is going to be exactley what i need. but i think i also need to do anothersolo adventure. to somewhere i've never been. clear the mind...... need to make this happen soon.
I do feel like i've sorted my thoughts out a little. drunken adventures are always great with that.. now just to get myself looking healthy and hot again and not a mess! POSITIVE ENERGY.


This time it means us. stop.

rainy...

I know. Its so rare for a shit dude to get me very down on life Aka tonight. I fucken love my life just forget how lucky i am. I guess when u put your faith in someone and they let you down its ok to
Get bummed .. Specially if it seems they let you down for no reason. But hey. Im alive i shoukd be happy right

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days are...

You accidentally became a feature of my screen... Why do u pop back into my Life i want nothin more than to see you saturday. Theres a guy here that reminds me of you. Treats me he same way. Yess i fell for it again. It was the Perfect Distracraction from Something perfect i started in my life.

Why did i always think i was like the cool kids. You always scorn me. I know im socially awkward but ey i thought i was doing ok. Really. I did.

How did i think things were differebt this time. Howd i think i was doing ok. How can i forget what i feel and why did i feel it in the first place.

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U kill me

Seriously... U do... I
Dont even need two words from u and i melt. Im prepared to let u treat
me like an ass...i know i get nothing in return... I
Just wish u knew how much u meant to me.,, x
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so succcexxxy

success.

what is it? is it making loads of money and been admired by the general public....
or is it

being entirely happy with who you are, and having the respect of those around you...